All This Time

I just thought I would remind you of how much you are loved. How much I love you. And how much we're thinking about you over here! You are going to turn five this year, probably before mom and dad get to you. You're going to be the 'baby' in the family! :) Zane is very excited about that. Speaking of which, you and your big brother Zane are only a month apart! How cool is that? You'll probably be sharing clothes with your other older brothers, Gabe and Levi, or maybe even Zane Man. You'll also be sharing a room with the 4 boys. And there's plenty of toys I'm sure your bros wouldn't mind lending to you ;) Gee, I hope you don't mind sharing!

So anyway, just remember that God is with you, and he'll wrap his arms around you and care for you until we can. "All this time, it was you and I, you've been walking with me all this time."- Britt Nicole You know, the song All This Time really resembles you. "I remember the story, I remember the pain. I was just a girl (boy) but I grew up that day. Tears were falling. I know you saw me." So whenever you feel alone, just replay those lyrics in your head, or think of us. Because you're not alone. Not forgotten. Not un-loved. I can assure you, you are not any of the above! Especially forgotten. You couldn't be even if you tried. There are so many people here thinking about you, praying for you, helping, fundraising, and sharing the same excitement and anticipation. We are working so hard to get you home. And are trying our best to expedite everything we can. We can not wait for you to join our family!! Until I can say "Kole House". And until you can come home and play with your many brothers! To see you playing, interacting, smiling, like a 4 year old should! Kole, when that day comes, all I think I will be able to do is smile. At not only you, but God's amazing miracle. What He did. He made you. And brought us to you....again. And that is just one of the many reasons I thank God!!



Love you!
Sissy

Have I Told You?

Dear sunshine,
Have I told you you are going to be rescued?
Have I told you you are going to be loved?
Have I told you you are going to be hugged and kissed?
Have I told you you are going to have a hand to hold?
Have I told you you are going to have a home?
Have i told you you are going to have a family?
Have I told you you are going to have 4 big brothers to play with?
Have I told you I'M GOING TO BE YOUR SISTER?

Of course I haven't! So I'm just giving you a headsup right now ;) It's a little belated, but oh well. At least now I can tell you we are home study updated/approved! It's hard to believe we were doing this same exact thing, a year ago. Yep, we tracked it all, and it seems that if all goes as planned, we will be back in UA in May. The same month we traveled to bring Gabe and Levi home. Which also means almost a full year as gone by since we met. It was bitter-sweet, leaving you- the bitter part, and leaving Zap with G & L-the sweet part. But now it's just all sweet! Sweet that I get to look at your pictures and say "see you soon". Sweet that I can now cry of longingness, knowing that you will soon be in my arms. Instead of knowing you won't any time soon. And sweet that I get to blog, write, chat, shop, and talk about you, as my new brother. Once we got home, I immediately missed the whole 'adoption feeling'. I wanted so badly to go through the process again. I wanted that excited, longing, happy, feeling an adoption brings. It's sort of a love-hate relationship we have actually. Whenever a family is in the adoption process, they just want it to end. They went their little one home with them, they will do whatever it takes to speed up the whole thing. I know because that was us a year ago. And that was/is so many adopting families I know. But yet, and I don't know if this goes for everyone, when it's all said and done, the one thing I want is to go through it all again. So this time around, I'm gonna enjoy every step we take. Every struggle or road bump we encounter, because I know when we're finished... well, let's just say that word "finish" won't be used to describe our family for while ;) But anyway, one thing I want to clarify is that I won't be taking my time. You don't deserve to spend one more minute in that place, so yes, it is all in God's hands and timing. As far as right now, we are trying to expedite anything and everything we can. But while cherishing and savoring these moments and feelings too.




So I can VERY gladly say, with a smile from ear to ear on my face, see you soon!!!

Love you,
Sissy (eeepp! I like the sound of that:))

Happy New Year!!

Dear Kory,
Happy New Year! I know 2012 began at 12:00am for you, which means 5:00pm our time. But I also know, I'm probably the first and last one to wish you a happy new year. It must be saddening for you. It makes me upset just thinking about it. Spending a holiday with no family and no celebration. If I could, I would pack my bags, hug my family goodbye, and hop on a plane right now to see you.....Okay, maybe not alone. But you get my point. I would be on my way in a heartbeat! So anyway, I hope you have a healthy and blessed 2012, and hopefully this will be the year you find your forever family :) I pray for you almost everyday, that God keeps you safe, protected, healthy, happy, and finds you a mom and dad of your own. And maybe we'll be that forever family ;) If it's God's Will, you'll come home to us. But who knows, this year could hold a WHOLE new door of opportunities for you! Like the positive side, you could find an amazing family! Or the negative, be transferred. But that's a whole other story. I'm looking forward to another year of advocating and blogging for you!!! Love you buddy <3




Sincerely,
Genesis
 

Flashback Part 3

Introducing, flashback part three........

Day 3

This morning, was a little different. We were cherishing our hour with Levi, as always, during visits. My mom, dad, Levi and I were right next to the playground your groupa goes almost everyday. I remember it like it was yesterday- Levi and I were being spun on a spinning wheel type thing we usually see at parks, here in America. This time, not the entire groupa came out, but thank goodness, you happen to be one of them in there :) As soon as I saw you all there, I tried convincing my mom to go over with me. She told me to go, and that I would be fine, about 10 feet away. So I walked between the small, green bushes, and stepped foot on the other play area, with a camera in my hand. Now of course, being around, basic strangers, who don't speak your language and are who knows how nice, get's an 11 year old a little nervous. And on top of that, I'm not the most outgoing person. But your caretakers are really sweet and you kiddos, are more then welcoming! After interacting with you guys for a few minutes, I unzipped the camera case and took out my (aunt's) camera, and began to take pictures of you. I got some pretty adorable snapshots ;) It got later, our visiting hour was ending, and so was your groupa "outdoor time". That ride back to the church (in which we were staying in Zap) , was a bidder-sweet 20 minutes. I had spent 2 hours with my amazing little brothers and held your hand for the last time. Saw your adorable face for the last time...hugged you for the last time...experienced your eye-opening smile for the very last time. I knew it would be a day of "lasts" for us, as far as being able to play with you because we were suppose to leave with Levi and Gabe to Kiev the next day. So knowing that this would be the last day we would be visiting Artem and Vitalik from the orphanage was a overwhelming, happy feeling. Yet, knowing that I wouldn't get to see you anymore, that, that was the bitter part. After the 3rd time seeing you, I felt like we had a connection. Almost like you were another brother we came to bring home. And knowing that we couldn't bring you back, felt like we left a family member behind. BUT! If it's God Will, we will meet again <3

Love you dear! 

Genesis

Flashback Part 2

From the last post, I explained I'd be writing letters to you, as if I were in Ukraine. Flashbacks.  

Day Two 

Dear Sunshine,

Today was amazing. I will never forget it. We again, used Levi as our 'navigator' and walked to the same play area where your groupa goes (almost) everyday. As we approached the corner, I heard kids screaming with laughter and running toward us. I kept walking and saw your sweet smile on your chubby little body, sitting on a painted tree stump. I waved, and once again, my eyes met your heart melting grin. I got down on my knees and you grabbed my hands. This time I brought the flip camera...I started recording your giggle. Your nannies, who did not speak one bit of English, tried asking me what time it was. They pointed to the video camera, than their wrist, as if they were wearing a watch. While babbling Russian- I had absolutely no idea what they were saying. I tried telling them that the camera wasn't a watch and I asked my dad what time is was. When he answered me I gave them the time and heard a word I could understand- Spaseeba which means thank you. Shortly afterwords, more nannies came out with several cups of what I believed, hot tea. That, or dirty hot water. They held the cup to your mouth and expected you to chug it down quickly. That was done with each and every child outside, including Levi. You all seemed to enjoy it, like it was a treat, yet I still feel bad for the way they quickly poured it down your throat. Along with the beverages, came trays of bread. A loaf of bread was spilt between the ten of you. After you all ate and drank, some of the kiddos went and sat in the metal, toy car.

I sat next to you and Levi a.k.a. Vitalik on one of the benches inside the car. You were holding my hands when my mom walked over to take pictures. I have a few photos of you holding my hand and hugging me. I tried reaching for you, I thought you'd want to sit on my lap. But you didn't respond. We spent a great amount of time in there, taking pictures together and sitting next to each other :) Eventually, your groupa had to go inside and we had to bring Levi back so we could spent the other hour with Gabe. I can't wait to see you again tomorrow!

Love,
Genesis

Flashback

I spent 3 mornings with you, outside on the orphanage playground. Since you don't understand English and I didn't have this blog while in Ukraine, I'm going to write letters as if I were in UA right now, visiting you. Basically, I'm writing down my thoughts about you, from the last six months :)So first, day ONE.

Dear Kory, 
Today we were playing outside with Levi, when I saw your groupa come out. I wanted to follow so bad! But I'm too shy... So I waited and convinced my parents to come over to the playground with me and Levi. We walked over there and set Levi down to make it look like he came over here on his own ;) We had brought a little bubble gun thing that we bought at the market for Levi. My mom and I followed Levi to you and the other kiddos and that's when I saw you. I had a gotten a glance of your sweet face inside the orphanage when we were picking up Levi for a visit once. I was surprised because we were told Gabe and Levi were the last children left in that orphanage with Down syndrome... 'They' were wrong. In fact, you and Sasha ('Alexander' on RR) were the last kids to be born with DS there. Besides little Stacy (also on RR) in Gabe's room. So anyway, I saw you sitting on a painted tree stump, smiling at us=) My mom and I were blowing bubbles with the gun and we made the kids all hyper and the nannies got mad hehe. We felt mad so we stopped. Than, I got down on my knees, in the sandy dirt and gave you a smile. Of course, being as cute and sweet as you are, you smiled back :) Than, reached for my hand...The most interesting part about me I guess? Or you just wanted a warm hand to hold. Either way, you played with my hand for half the time. A few minutes later, I went and sat with Levi and Sasha and my mom on the little boat/bench thingy. One of the nannies, the sweetest and eldest of all, brought you over to the boat, and sat you on my lap. Now my mom and I were wondering why the nannies were like....trying to get us attached to you. Maybe they wanted you to get adopted? I have no idea. But it was sweet. My absolute favorite part (next to meeting my brothers) is the 2 minutes you sat on  my lap. You were so cute and chubby and sort of 'floppy' I guess. Like a baby=) I loved it! And I will never regret meeting you.... NEVER. 


With love,
Genesis <3

Minus Nine

So I have come to a thought. I have ten precious children at heart and love each and every one of them! One of those 10 happens to be 'Kory', which whom I met in Ukraine while adopting my brothers. I fell in love with this amazing little boy and automaticly, he was the first to 'be born into the family' when creating this blog. Because of the (short) history Kory and I have, more then half the posts have been written to Kory.

Like I said, I absolutely LOVE the kids I have and part of me doesn't want to do this... But I think it would be best if I put my 'family' on hold for a while and focused on Kory. I have decided to end the family blog and just write letters to lil' K.

PLEASE, don't think I'm favoriting this child or being selfish. I just think it makes the most sense, after writing so many posts to Kory. In the future, I will resume "You're My Baby, You're My Sunshine". I have decided to change the title just so that people won't get confused, in case this post doesn't reach everyone... If ya know what I mean? ;)


Please keep reading! I'll be updating.



Love,

Genesis










I love you Gabi, Jamison, Juliet, Becca, Maribel, Adam, Nikita, Will, Kory, and Paige! Your Mom at heart love's you and one day, you'll have a REAL mommy, to take you home and hug and kiss you!!